After finding the blog http://thegypsymama.com/ through my friend Claire's blog http://www.countrymouseclaire.com/ I decide to join in with her Five Minute Friday blogging.
The idea is to write for a straight five minutes on a topic and this week it is LOUD.
Sometimes I feel if I shout louder than the person I who is shouting at me I'll win the argument. I have been shouting when I lose my temper for years now but I instantly regret it. I regret the ugly words that come out and only come out if you shout loud. I try to stay quieter now when I feel angry and that means my loudness stays inside which means the things I don't mean don't come out.
If I am loud the raise in volume can bring a raise in temperature I don't mean. I think it is best to stay quieter nowadays. Maybe it is a sign of growing up?
I think I am still loud in situations where there is fun. That kind of loud of laughter bubbling and overflowing is a good type of loud. I guess I have two types of loud: my angry loud and my laughing loud andf they are very distinct from each other. The fact that the angry loud is more controlled is a good thing (except when it gets loud in your head cos there are lots of thoughts swirling around- sometimes then a good stomp about to loud music helps then) and the fact I can laugh loudly is a good thing.
Wow. That is a whole lot of babbling!